Though my flesh will fail...

I'm not going to apologize for not writing in like forever and a day because I'm not really all that sorry. I am a college student and I have a life and sometimes it gets in the way. I will admit that I have so very much missed writing. In fact, there have been times where I have sat down in front of this very computer to write something and my brain and heart have just been so full that I can't seem to get the words onto the page coherently. But today I am going to stick with it until I can get this out. If I don't get it out, it will just continue to weigh me down. So here goes nothing...

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Do you ever feel like life has a sick sense of humor? Like everything happens all at once? And what's worse you knew it was going to happen all along but you refused to admit it? Yeah, you too? Thought so. Well welcome to my life currently...well sorta. Let me explain. Remember when I talked about changing my major? Don't freak out. I am still overjoyed and content with my decision. I know I made the right one. Granted some days are hard since I'm so out of practice. Bright side? Found out at my advising meeting Thursday that I'll have a whole extra year instead of just an extra semester to get more practice. Yes there was some frustration and sarcasm behind that. Ladies and gents, I am frustrated. 

Frustrated because I hate finding things out like this seemingly last minute, seeing as I register for the spring semester on Tuesday morning and still have no plan as to what I'm taking. Yikes. I'm frustrated because I have to find a place to live for a whole extra year with different people since my roommates will all be gone by May. Also frustrated because said living space can't be more expensive than the one the parental are already paying for. Frustrated because the reason why it can't be more expensive is that I will be going over the allotted hours for a four year degree causing my tuition to increase and the parentals pay that as well. Frustrated because I know I did this to myself and I don't know how this is all going to work out. 

I did this to myself. I put myself in this situation. I know that. I know I should have been a dance major from the beginning. These things, I know them. My body is so out of shape from 4 years of not dancing everyday and working out and eating better. It makes me so angry because I want my dancing to be perfect. Well not perfect but more like it used to be. I am so frustrated. But my body's memory of dance is alarming though. It's like it knows what to do and how but it just doesn't have the strength like it used to. 

So I guess you could say that having to stay a whole extra year is a blessing because when I graduate with the degree I will have more experience and I'll be a better dancer. But y'all this is not how I pictured my life going. Not at all. I was going to graduate in four years with a marketable degree, get a big girl job, get my own place, etc. Well hello world, that's not happening now is it? No. The answer is no its not. 

In fact I don't even know what tomorrow will hold. But you know what? I know WHO holds tomorrow. Yes that was cliche and no I don't care because it's true. The Lord has me in His hand and I know all I need to do is draw near to Him. But daggum if that ain't harder than 5 consecutive turns on pointe y'all. However that's a post for another day. I really don't know what this post was supposed to be about or anything but hey, I feel better. So enjoy your day and weekend. I'll be back sometime.

"My health may fail, and my spirit may grow weak, but God remains the strength of my heart; He is mine forever." Psalm 73:26

Funny Things

Hello my beautiful people. I know I have been absent for a while and for that I am truly sorry. Believe me I have been wanting to sit down and write about a million things but its so hard to find the time. When I do find the time I'm so exhausted that I don't even want to move let alone write for two hours. Just being honest here.

I'm very picky about my writing. I like for it be perfect and unrushed. I can't tell you how many unfinished posts I have saved in drafts on Blogger. They haven't been published because they aren't up to my standards or they seem to be missing something that I can't quite figure out. I'm saying all of that to say this: I beg of you, please hang in there with me. I promise it'll get better. I love this little blog and one day, when I can afford it, I want to grow it. I want this to be a completely honest and safe place for me to write and for people to feel comfortable reading and responding to me. Just give me time.

That being said. I am actually going to write a full post today. In fact, its time for another installment of the funny things that go on in my apartment. If you missed the first post like this, you can find it here.

Let me start by saying I am truly blessed to be able to be living with these amazing girls for the second year in row. They are my family and I wouldn't trade them for anything. Also they are pretty freaking hilarious. Let me share with you some more recent hilarious things that have happened since the last post.

So last time I did this, I featured mostly Mackenzie because its usually me and her that are the ones chilling around the apartment. Well, this time I am proud to bring you more sayings by Kenz but also some hilarious things that Sarah Beth or SB has said. If you don't laugh at these things, you need to go get your funny bone checked. Like seriously.

Sarah Beth, me, Mackenzie

Let's start with Mackenzie. So one night, me and Kenz are chilling on the couch and this annoying thing keeps popping up on my computer so finally I say something about it. The following conversation happens and yes guys, she went there.

Me: UGH! I'm tired of this thing popping up.

Kenz: That's what he said.

Kenz and I have this habit of SnapChatting each other while we are in the same room. I mean like we get serious about it y'all, complete with pillows to hide the horrendous pictures we send each other. (SnapChat post coming soon maybe? Stay tuned.) So we are having one of those nights where we decide it is more fun to SnapChat each other than it is to talk and the following happens:

*send Kenz a SnapChat*

Kenz: You're nose looks huge!

Me: Oh my gosh, it does!

Kenz: Like a big bratwurst.

Oh gee thanks Kenz... 

I'm actually not sure what the context of this conversation was, but it still makes me laugh.

Kenz: Two in one day. We're on a roll.

Me: If that's what you wanna call it.

Kenz: Fine. We're on a biscuit. Is that better?

And the last thing from Kenz is probably one of my favorite things she's ever said to me. 

Kenz: They say smoke follows beauty, maybe farts do too.

So yeah that's Kenz for ya. I love her to death. She definitely always makes me laugh. I can't believe she will be getting married in like FOUR MONTHS! AHHHH! But anyway let's see some of the crazy things that SB has said. She is the queen of one liners so I'm just going to throw them at y'all. Enjoy.

You can lick your neighbor. 

Laughing out your butthole over there.

I peed so hard I laughed my pants.

Clearly I have some hilarious roommates. I love them both dearly. Well, I'm officially on fall break now. So I'm going to continue to lay around and do nothing. I hope you all have a fabulous day. 

All my love, Carly ♥

A Milestone

Well gang, its official. I have been around the sun 21 times. Yep, that's right folks. Today I turn the big two-one. Its crazy to think about it. I feel like just yesterday I was entering high school or even attending my 8th grade dance. I can't believe I am 21 years old and a senior in college. It seriously blows my mind. To be honest, I actually kinda feel old. I look at the now young adults that I've known since they were little tots or terror or even babies and I just think to myself, 'where did the time go? how are you a senior in high school?!'. It's crazy. So today I want to share with you some things I've learned along my journey so far. They are coming at you in no particular order and are all based on personal experience. So without further ado I present to you...

--- Life is hard. As if you didn't already know this, I'm going to make sure you do. Life is hard y'all. There are days when I don't even want to get out of bed. But on those days, when I make myself crawl out of bed, I end up having a great day or learn something amazing. Every day is precious and is another opportunity to grow. Use it. I read a quote once that said "Not every day is good, but there is good in everyday." How true is that? Yes, life is hard. Just face it anyway.

--- God is on your side. No matter what, He will always have your back. He loves you (and me) more than we can ever understand and more than anyone here on earth can. Lean on Him and He will give you strength and wisdom.

--- Taco Bell and Cookout are the best places to go when its late at night and you are so hungry you could eat a cow. No seriously. I've done this plenty of times. I'll just be chilling on the couch and then starvation hits me and I hop in my car, usually dragging Kenz with me, and I go hit up one of these places and the world is in balance again. Hell hath no fury than a hungry woman. Well that's a lie, but seriously these places have awesome late night food.

--- Girl friends are better than guy friends. I don't want to go into too much detail on this one because I'm working on a post that is just about my opinion on this. Now don't get me wrong, guy friends rock and I have my fair share of them but when it comes to getting deep and seeking advice, it is rare that you would or should turn to the opposite sex. Who else can relate to you better than someone who actually KNOWS what you're talking about?! Me and Kenz have amazing conversations about things guys would never understand because they don't experience it. Seek to build lasting and meaningful friendships with girls. You'll be glad you did.

--- Laugh at yourself. I used to be terrible at this. I can remember falling in the hallway in like fifth grade and I wanted to cry because I was so embarrassed. Fast forward to high school when it happened again and I laughed for like 5 minutes. It was hilarious. Being able to laugh at yourself will save you from a lot of unnecessary worrying and embarrassment. I laugh at myself at least 20 times a day. Laughter is great medicine. Good for the mind, body, and soul.

--- Honesty is the best policy. I cannot stress this enough. I equate honesty to respect. You should respect another person enough to be completely honest with them. Don't be mean when you're being honest. I used to be that way. I was notorious for being brutally honest, like I made people cry. But over the years I've realized that you can be honest with people without being a jerk. But ALWAYS BE HONEST. Trust me, it's the one of the best things you can do for another person.

--- Do what you love. This is another one that I want to stress to you. I came into college knowing what I SHOULD be majoring in, but instead I did the opposite because I thought I didn't have a chance at doing what I loved. Now that I made the decision to do what I love, I couldn't be happier. Seriously. Do what you love because it will make you happy.

--- Stay positive. I know that this is hard to do, but when you become negative it is so hard to turn that mindset around. Think positive thoughts and you will be lots happier. I pinky promise.

--- Have a hobby. I know this sounds like super grandma-y but I'm serious. Find something you like to do, and do it as often as you can. It's a great way to relieve stress. Who knows? It could even turn into a career.

--- Read often. I love to read. It takes you to another place and is a great way to escape. It is also a great way to learn new things. I highly encourage you to try and read at least one book a month. Its good for you.

--- Ask questions. And ask lots of them. How will you know if you don't ask? I used to not ask questions a lot but now I find myself asking them more and more. Its a great way to learn and get different perspectives.

--- God's love story is perfect. This one. Wow. I could write like a thousand posts on this one. God is perfect, so of course His love story for us will be perfect too. Wait on Him. When you are ready, He will bring your love to you. You don't have to seek that person. In the meantime, be in prayer and grow in the Lord. Seriously. It's so rewarding.

--- Be adventurous. This is pretty much self-explanatory. Go on adventures. Take smart risks. Get outside your comfort zone a little. Let loose and have fun.

--- Be an encouragement. Nobody likes a Debbie Downer. Don't be one. Always be encouraging to people. You never know what people are going through and your words can either help or hurt someone. Always help.

--- Dance whenever and wherever you can. Self-explanatory basically. Enjoy life and dance. Its liberating.

--- Be kind always. I mean nobody likes a mean person. Kindness begets kindness y'all.

--- God's plan is perfect. I've written a post about this already which you can read here. Wait on the Lord. He is the ultimate planner. His plans are way better than even our wildest dreams.

--- Learn another language. I know this sounds weird but do it anyway. Learn how another culture communicates. It also will make you more marketable in the workplace. Plus its awesome to learn a language other than your own.

--- Never settle. This can be said in all aspects of life. Never settle for less than you deserve. Set your standards high. When you settle for something, you are settling for disappointment and heartbreak as well. Remember that.

--- Be thankful. The people in your life are only here for a certain time, be thankful for them. The opportunities you are given and presented with are only around for a time, be thankful. Always be thankful for what you have.

--- "You are blessed - behave like you know it." My mother said this to me yesterday. How true it is. We are blessed and fortunate. So the next time you want to throw yourself a pity party or complain and be angry, remember that you are blessed and you should behave like you know. Be humble.

Well guys, there is some advice from me that I have learned over the years. If you want to keep up with all the birthday shenanigans over the next few days follow me on Twitter and Instagram. I'm sure it'll be a great next few days.

All my love, Carly ♥