A Thankful Heart

I honestly try to be thankful for the things I have been blessed with everyday. It's really hard though. Especially when life is throwing you a thousand curve balls all at once. But I decided to sit down and list out some things I am thankful for in honor of this beautiful Thanksgiving season.

I am thankful for...

...a God who loves me no matter what. Even when I don't deserve it. Even when I don't think I need it. 

...a supportive, loving, Godly, and devoted set of parents. I look around sometimes and see peers who come from broken homes and I can't even imagine what it feels like to go home and have to split time between parents or not know a parent at all. I am grateful for my amazing parents.

...a sister who is more than a sister, a sister who is my very best friend. Yeah we argue sometimes and hurt each others feelings, but I'll be danged if she ain't the best person I know. 

...friends who support and love me even when I'm grumpy or just downright ridiculous. Thanks for putting up with the crazy.

...hot chocolate. No seriously this stuff is the greatest thing ever. Especially the packets with the colored marshmallows. HEAVEN! Yes, I'm 5 years old. Sue me.

...the opportunity to pursue my dreams in dance.

...FOOTBALL! Need I say more?

...animals, because who doesn't love puppies and other fluffy things?

...my little space on the interwebz. Even though I neglect it more than I love on it, I enjoy being able to come here and write whatever my heart desires.

...the people who actually read this little blog of mine. Really. I appreciate it.

...a place to live. This is a big one for me right now. Especially after what happened in the Philippines. Never take your house for granted or anything in it.

...the arts because they have always been there when I needed to get something out without words. Preesh.

...clothes. Like seriously. Could you imagine if we still walked around nakey? It's too cold where I live for all that mess. Plus, I am definitely not confident enough for all that.

...chapstick. Always there when the wind blows too much.

...the military people who fight to keep my freedom. I respect you more than you know.

...for leggings, yoga pants, and sweatpants. You know for those days when for when everyday is too much of a struggle to put on real pants. Always saving the day.

So I think that's all for random musings today peeps. I don't know when I'll be back (just being honest) but I hope you guys have a wonderful holiday full of massive amounts of food. Put aside your familial differences today and hug everyone's neck. Happy Thanksgiving.

Keep it classy, Carly ♥

Though my flesh will fail...

I'm not going to apologize for not writing in like forever and a day because I'm not really all that sorry. I am a college student and I have a life and sometimes it gets in the way. I will admit that I have so very much missed writing. In fact, there have been times where I have sat down in front of this very computer to write something and my brain and heart have just been so full that I can't seem to get the words onto the page coherently. But today I am going to stick with it until I can get this out. If I don't get it out, it will just continue to weigh me down. So here goes nothing...

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Do you ever feel like life has a sick sense of humor? Like everything happens all at once? And what's worse you knew it was going to happen all along but you refused to admit it? Yeah, you too? Thought so. Well welcome to my life currently...well sorta. Let me explain. Remember when I talked about changing my major? Don't freak out. I am still overjoyed and content with my decision. I know I made the right one. Granted some days are hard since I'm so out of practice. Bright side? Found out at my advising meeting Thursday that I'll have a whole extra year instead of just an extra semester to get more practice. Yes there was some frustration and sarcasm behind that. Ladies and gents, I am frustrated. 

Frustrated because I hate finding things out like this seemingly last minute, seeing as I register for the spring semester on Tuesday morning and still have no plan as to what I'm taking. Yikes. I'm frustrated because I have to find a place to live for a whole extra year with different people since my roommates will all be gone by May. Also frustrated because said living space can't be more expensive than the one the parental are already paying for. Frustrated because the reason why it can't be more expensive is that I will be going over the allotted hours for a four year degree causing my tuition to increase and the parentals pay that as well. Frustrated because I know I did this to myself and I don't know how this is all going to work out. 

I did this to myself. I put myself in this situation. I know that. I know I should have been a dance major from the beginning. These things, I know them. My body is so out of shape from 4 years of not dancing everyday and working out and eating better. It makes me so angry because I want my dancing to be perfect. Well not perfect but more like it used to be. I am so frustrated. But my body's memory of dance is alarming though. It's like it knows what to do and how but it just doesn't have the strength like it used to. 

So I guess you could say that having to stay a whole extra year is a blessing because when I graduate with the degree I will have more experience and I'll be a better dancer. But y'all this is not how I pictured my life going. Not at all. I was going to graduate in four years with a marketable degree, get a big girl job, get my own place, etc. Well hello world, that's not happening now is it? No. The answer is no its not. 

In fact I don't even know what tomorrow will hold. But you know what? I know WHO holds tomorrow. Yes that was cliche and no I don't care because it's true. The Lord has me in His hand and I know all I need to do is draw near to Him. But daggum if that ain't harder than 5 consecutive turns on pointe y'all. However that's a post for another day. I really don't know what this post was supposed to be about or anything but hey, I feel better. So enjoy your day and weekend. I'll be back sometime.

"My health may fail, and my spirit may grow weak, but God remains the strength of my heart; He is mine forever." Psalm 73:26